Author: pantomathematics

12 & 13 of the Father’s Day asks?

12 – What’s the best memory of your father?

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                  ———THOUGH ELLIOT’S RELATIONSHIP WITH HIS FATHER WAS MORE THAN TARNISHED, he admired his father in the beginning of their relationship. he wasn’t raised by his father, a man his mother never spoke about until her sickness early into his childhood. growing up in the weimar republic, elliot had little to call his own. his father came into the picture after his mother orchestrated a will and basically blackmailed the married man into taking his illegitimate child. at first elliot thought it was his father’s choice in taking custody of him, something that really helped his self esteem and worth. elliot remembers being spoiled early on, but soon that too fell apart. 

he doesn’t really have a good singular memory of his father.

13 – What’s the worst memory of your father?

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                  ———ELLIOT REMEMBERS THE MAN WHO HE KNEW AS FATHER. the family dynamic was centered around he and his brother, whereas his father and half mother were never truly parents to him. his worst memory of his father came around the time he was thirteen. for jews, this is a very significant age, as it marks ones bar or bat mitzvah, their coming of age if you will. elliot had been experiencing an identity crisis for some time at this point, something his brother alexander helped him through. wanting to present as a man, elliot felt somewhat reluctant to have a bat mitzvah. his father saw this identity crisis as a rebellious defilement of tradition, and beat his child until he was satisfied she understood who she was. there are worse memories, but this one seems to have stuck with elliot longer than any others.

fathers day asks | accepting!

❝ I’m just so sick of straight people who can’t get their shit together. ❞

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                ———❝ I’VE LIVED LONGER THAN A GOOD PERCENTILE OF THE WORLD. i’ve yet to see the day when straight people can act right in the presence of a queer. ❞
an accusation that held a bit of weight. it strained and pulled but never sank him, the subject at hand. he’d grown up at at time when people like him were herded into camps and slaughtered en masse. it wasn’t hard to say they’d gotten a little better from there.

     

❝ don’t let that stop you, it certainly hasn’t stopped me. ❞

love simon starters | accepting!

Father’s Day Asks

feed-your-inbox:

Send a number and ask my muse about their father.

1 – Were you close to your father?
2 – What was your father’s name? 
3 – What was your father like in general?
4 – Would you say your father was a good parent?
5 – How did your father treat your mother?
6 – What was your father’s appearance like?
7 – What features did you inherit from your biological father?
8 – Was the father you grew up with your biological one or someone that became a father figure?
9 – What was an important lesson your father taught you?
10 – Is your father still around?
11 – Do you visit your father? How often?
12 – What’s the best memory of your father?
13 – What’s the worst memory of your father?
14 – Do you want to follow in your father’s footsteps?
15 – Do you want to parent like your father parented you?

** + Anything else you can think of.


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ELLIOT’S VOICE

           anyways this is an excerpt from Ein spätes Mädchen in which Schweighofer sings 9 Crimes. I chose to pitch it in elliot’s range as his voice is somewhat high and accented.

therpmemes:

                  love, simon  → sentence starters

slightly edited in some cases to work for rp purposes. features quotes from Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda as well.
feel free to change phrasing or pronouns to fit your muse(s)!

  • ❝

    I’m just like you.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I have one huge-ass secret.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Nobody knows I’m gay.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Sometimes I feel like I’m stuck on a ferris wheel. One minute I’m on top of the world, then the next I’m at rock-bottom.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I’ve been thinking about why I haven’t come out yet.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Who you are to the world is pretty terrifying because what if the world doesn’t like you?❞

  • ❝

    It doesn’t seem fair that only gay people have to come out. Why is straight the default?❞

  • ❝

    Sometimes I feel like I’m always on the outside, there’s this invisible line that I have to cross to really be a part of everything and I just can’t ever cross it.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Sometimes I think I’m destined to care so much about one person it nearly kills me.

    ❞

  • ❝

    He’s wearing a woman’s sweater and he’s drunk.

    ❞

  • ❝

    When did you first realize?

    ❞

  • ❝

    I haven’t told anyone. Announcing who you are to the world is pretty terrifying.

    ❞ 

  • ❝

    I have something to tell you. I’m straight.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I like girls.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I’m heterosexual.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I’m sorry. I can’t do this anymore.

    ❞

  • ❝ I’m supposed to be the one that decides when and how and who knows, and how I get to say it, that’s supposed to be my thing! ❞
  • ❝

    I’m done living in a world where I don’t get to be who I am. I deserve a great love story and I want someone to share it with.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Have you ever been in love?

    ❞

  • ❝

    These last years, it’s almost like I can feel you holding your breath.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Disclaimer, this is about to get romantic as F.

    ❞

  • ❝

    She’s cute, but she’s just not really my type. Not because she’s black. I love black women. Not like, you know, I have a thing for black women, I just, I just, I just love all women.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I might not know your name or what you look like, but I want to find you.❞

  • ❝

    I’m done living in a world where I don’t get to be who I am.

    ❞

  • ❝

    White shouldn’t be the default any more than straight should be the default. There shouldn’t even be a default.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Sometimes it seems like everyone knows who I am except me

    ❞

  • ❝

    Straight people really should have to come out, and the more awkward it is, the better. Awkwardness should be a requirement.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I mean, I feel secure in my masculinity, too. Being secure in you masculinity isn’t the same as being straight.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I’m just so sick of straight people who can’t get their shit together.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I’m too busy trying not to be in love with someone who isn’t real.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Really, though, there are only two kinds of weather: hoodie weather and weather where you wear a hoodie anyway.

    ❞

  • ❝

    Did you just tell us you’re gay?

    ❞

  • ❝

    Nothing is worse than the secret humiliation of being insulted by proxy.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I fall a little bit in love with everyone.

    ❞

  • ❝

    People are shameless when it comes to cake. It’s a beautiful thing to see.

    ❞

  • ❝

    There’s something about you that makes me want to open up, and that’s slightly terrifying to me.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I knew you had a secret.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I wanted to ask you about it, but I didn’t wan to pry. Maybe I made a mistake.

    ❞

  • ❝

    You get to be more you than you have been in, in a very long time. You deserve everything you want.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I like no endings. I like things that don’t end.

    ❞

  • ❝

    You may actually be the only person who gets more than 140 characters from me. That’s kind of awesome, right?

    ❞

  • ❝

    I have a sneaking suspicion that you’re not 100% committed to your Oreo diet.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I can’t imagine a scenario where I don’t want to kiss your face off as soon as I see you.❞

  • ❝

    I feel irrelevant.

    ❞

  • ❝

    They put me in a box, and every time I try to nudge the lid open, they slam it back down. It’s like nothing about me is allowed to change.

    ❞

  • ❝

    It’s really amazing, isn’t it? Someone can trigger your sexual identity crisis and not have a clue they’re doing it. ❞

  • ❝

    There’s no such thing as a good idea when you’re in seventh grade.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I feel like I’m supposed to make some comment to underscore the ridiculousness of it all, but honestly? It’s sort of nice not to have to be cynical for a change.

    ❞

  • ❝

    I try not to change, but i keep changing, in all these tiny ways. And every freaking time, i have to reintroduce myself to the universe all over again.

    ❞ 

  • ❝

    You make everything a big deal.

    ❞

SPLINTER.

     she contemplated that question , MAY it be rhetorical or not , “ i mean … perhaps both ? “ and with finality , swiped her palm over the dead man’s eyes ; shutting his lids once and for all without so much as smearing a drop of blood . 

     looks like she WON the staring contest ! 

    “ … i mean it wasn’t ea—sy . i lost a shoe at some point and got like , eleven splinters in my foot thereafter , but the smell was too STRONG to just ignore , so i followed it all the way up here ! what a pain . the splinters , i mean . got any tweezers ? “

           ——— OFTEN THE INFERNAL DID NOT GARNER A SENSE OF HUMOR. little by little, he noted the gaps in his understanding of the situation. he’d done this job as instructed by his client, the woman wanting the body displayed from high above as if burnt in effigy. he knew better than to light the fucker on fire, too flashy, too noticeable.

     still, it mattered little if his cover was blown so quickly, the girl both a witness and an anomaly.

   

❝ i can help you, but you’re going to need to come with me. ❞

WHITTAKER.

whittaker mustered a small smile as he gladly welcomed elliot’s embrace. ❛ and you haven’t either, ❜ he retorted. he silently welcomed the warmth and familiarity of his apartment after several days of traveling; he shrugged his peacoat from his shoulders and draped it over the back of a nearby chair. ❛ i am surprised that you’re more interested in how i got here rather than the fact i am here, ❜ he teased. he rolled his shoulders as a casual stretch. ❛ i took an early flight for most of the way, then a night train, then the subway. ❜ it was safe to say that it had been a long couple of days.

his gaze was warm as he turned to face him ( a bit of a rarity ). ❛ did you forget ? you said you’d be coming back around this time. i wanted to see if you’d keep your promise. ❜ he didn’t come because he was anxious to see him again, obviously.

                       ———IT MATTERED LITTLE TO HIM HOW THE MAN ARRIVED. seeing the countless times his friend and companion had waltzed in as bare bones, he knew just how to appreciate his current presence. small miracles reminded him ; he cleared the way for the other to come in, steaming kettle signalling his own end of the promise. like he’d ever forget company?

        ❝ the u-bahn isn’t what it used to be, but its certainly better than the tube most days. ❞
pouring a cup of tea, the man offered a mug on the off chance whittaker would take it. some of their kind went without eating, but elliot often found it kept his sanity to appreciate a good beverage and meal.

       

❝ tell me, what brings you to berlin? ❞